Tuesday, December 10, 2019
What if him?
I don't want him to become broken because I'm not sure how I'd be able to pick up his pieces or give him some of mine. I'm already broken in so many ways. Is there any way that I can even be of any help? I feel hopeless and helpless while I try to tell him everything will be okay. He's so strong even though I know about the little boy inside trying to get out and be who he really wants to be. I try to coax him out a little but his friends and family rush him back in again. How can I be his strong person when everything around us is so much louder than I am? Is it possible for me to lead him back to the light when I'm also in the dark? We've gotten closer to the light together but there's definitely a ways away to get there, to feel its warmth and complete happiness. Is this like the blind leading the blind? Or is it simply the growth that we're both supposed to go through together? All I want to do is help without stopping that growth. How do I do that without walking away from the light that we're going towards as well as help him along? How can I carry him when he's been carrying me pretty much the whole time? I just want him to feel my support in a healthy way. What is healthy? So many questions and no one to answer. All I know is I'm here and we'll go through this together one way or another. But he didn't lose and he didn't break. My mind can be more calm, happy that things continue in a less terrifying way.
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