Pain... Life...

Life is so bipolar. Its terrible. You could have the best day ever but have it end so terribly. You have to keep going though, huh? You push in through that shit. Its so hard though. I know, I'm experiencing so much pain. I can't think sometimes. I've been being more obvious about my feelings, about my sadness. Pain keeps tearing at my soul. My heart keeps hurting, I hurt all over. I feel pain. Pain that hurts but I can not explain why or really actually where. I can only say that it is for the world we seem to live in now. This very sad world that gets with the days. I become stronger even though I feel like I am becoming weak with each swing of evil. This evil is so hard to deal with. Its so bipolar.

Don't Do It

People just make me disappointed in where I live. People give to charities because it looks good or because it's a good thing to do. Not necessarily because they want to. If you don't want to do something, don't do it. Seriously. If you don't want to go to church because you don't believe in God, don't go. If you don't want to be in relationship, don't be in one. If you don't want to get married DON'T DO IT. I'm not saying do whatever you want. Just don't do what you don't want to get into fully with your heart. If your heart isn't in it then there is no point in doing it. My heart is going towards one dream to fulfill a few other dreams because I know one dream can lead to at least a thousand other. What's your dream? How can you persue that dream? Tell yourself the truth. If you can't do that then you can't tell anyone the truth. Don't go for twisted dreams. Go for the more colourful dreams. Go for what you truly want from your heart. It may not be wht everyone else wants but screw that. Damnit, go to fulfill your true dreams. Don't do what you don't want because, dude, you'll be miserable. Maybe you deserve it but you don't want it.

No Sin Great Enough...

I think a lot about certain things different people say. Sometimes they are the most random things but some can be thought as deep...ish. One thing that comes to mind is something a friend said when I asked if they wanted to go to the christmas: "No. It's like going to a person's birthday party and I don't know the person." My question would have been "Do you want to know Him?". I've thought about that since it was said and it tortures me because I feel as if it's too late. But I think about it because it was interesting thing to say in my opinion. Someone else found out a friend was gay and said "Oh, well he's decided not to be a Christian." (or something along those lines.) Now, I don't believe that. I mean sure I don't agree with it being okay, I think it's a sin like adultery and such things as that. Just because you sin doesn't mean you're no longer a Christian. It's your sin you need to work on just like with anything like stealing (whether it be a piece of gum or an expensive watch) or lying (Whether it be a white lie or the biggest lie in history.). A sin is a sin no matter how big or small it may seem to you or others. Every one of us lives in one sin or another, that doesn't mean you're not a Christian, it only means you have something to work on. No one should judge you for anything you do but any true friend should tell you the truth of what they believe, though it should never be done in anger or anything other than possible concern and real trying helpfulness. If you don't want any help, your friend should understand not to bring it up. Should... People aren't usually understanding though. I'm sorry if this is the case. I hope youf ind a true friend somewhere at sometime possibly soon. Thank you...

Are You A Romantic?

Why aren't people romantic? I mean sure, you can't be romantic all the time but you could at least be somewhat romantic sometimes. All anyone thinks about or talks about is sex. All they want is sex and they can't control themselves. People I've spoken to about dating and even just kissing is "I couldn't live without kissing him." So why am I alive? I've never kissed a guy (Or girl) and I'm fine. Sure I would like to kiss a guy. Lots of guys have wanted to kiss me. Like really kiss me, not just on the cheek. But I haven't been there yet where that actually happened. It doesn't sound very romantic but I'd like to wait until I'm married to have that first kiss. It sounds hard, it is hard but it doesn't actually matter if they're good kissers or are good in bed. It matters who they are and where their heart is. Whether their heart is in the right place. You don't just know who a guy is because of the sex they give or the kiss you like. It's really inside them you need to look at. If you can laugh, fight, cry, and stay together then great. I don't like the thought of fighting because it means you and another person are angry and yelling and not listening. It's better to discuss and disagree but trying to understand and accept the other persons views. But whatever happens, in the end you should forgive and forget instead of forgive and bring it back later for blackmailing. Arguments should be forgotten. If you have a problem with an argument or don't remember how you resolved it, then ask. Don't ask over and over again because that is just annoying and another reason for an argument. Calm yourself down and be happy. Also: Happy wife happy life. With a little: Would you rather be happy or right? Thank you...