Innocence and Love

I feel like with the innocence of children we find true and purer love than we can find anywhere else with certain things. They're just coming into this world of hardship and they don't know. Its not that fact they should carry. Its love they should keep in their hearts. Not the hate we feel for each other. They have this lovingness about them. They have this knowing about them that makes it seem like everything will be okay. Like everything will slow for a moment so happiness may be there always. Do you see thus in children even if they're your own? Even the little boys that seem to destroy everything they see, can you see the innocence and love? The only thing is, innocence is a dying breed. Love is going along with it. Pride and evil knowledge is taking over. Fear is also coming along, its been everywhere but its like a spy, it may show itself once in a great while but now its just getting sloppy. We need to keep.everything together and slow down. Smell the flowers. Look at the moon. Realise beauty slowly and well enough to stand in awe. We need to stop to think about where we've been to get to where we are going. Thank you.

Act In Innocence?

I feel like with the innocence of children we find true and purer love than we can find anywhere else with certain things. They're just coming into this world of hardship and they don't know. Its not that fact they should carry. Its love they should keep in their hearts. Not the hate we feel for each other. They have this lovingness about them. They have this knowing about them that makes it seem like everything will be okay. Like everything will slow for a moment so happiness may be there always. Do you see thus in children even if they're your own? Even the little boys that seem to destroy everything they see, can you see the innocence and love? The only thing is, innocence is a dying breed. Love is going along with it. Pride and evil knowledge is taking over. Fear is also coming along, its been everywhere but its like a spy, it may show itself once in a great while but now its just getting sloppy. We need to keep.everything together and slow down. Smell the flowers. Look at the moon. Realise beauty slowly and well enough to stand in awe. We need to stop to think about where we've been to get to where we are going. Thank you.

Give and Take Away

If you can pull yourself away from that person or thing that you love so much and just let it go, see if it or they return. If they return then they are yours. If they don't, they weren't yours in the first place. Let go of your lover to see how they may really feel about you. It sounds painful to me and I don't have anyone. It will be painful especially if they weren't true to you in the first place. If not then keep on living to find the truth that you want and deserve to hold onto. If yes then you may rejoice in all things. Just find out first. If you know then you shall have power. Wisdom is power. This is wisdom, painful wisdom but wisdom nonetheless. Its the trust you must have. If you don't have trust, what do you have?

Why Does This Even Happen?

Why are people so mean? I don't mean to sound innocent or anything but why? People die because of this. People kill themselves because of this. That isn't innocent. That's murder really. Its not thought of as that but that's the truth and its serious. People have a bad day and they decide to take it out in others. What does this accomplish? The person might be having the same type of day you're having. Couldn't you consider that? Your friends can take your shit buy that one person you might decide to be mad at on accident might be having one of the worst days and you make it worse. How do you feel now? You might have killed someone. Why are you doing this anyway? What the hell do you think you'll gain? Vent on your own time to your own friends. That one person you vent to but act mean and don't really mean to, will you ever see them again? You don't know. I don't understand why you'd want to do that anyway. Do you gain anything? Seriously, I want to know. Other than you feeling better, do you gain a thing from terrorizing another human being? Please tell me. But this is sick. Mayne you had that done to you. Pull yourself together. Get some help so that your life can go on. Don't put things on little people because that's what has been done to you. Be merciful. Not everyone is equal in the way they were raised or anything like that. Life isn't fair anyway. It won't become fair anytime soon.

Oh Well

I have this feeling of unfulfillment. I just feel like I don't have anything to show for anything I've ever done. Maybe I'm just feeling depressed. Why would I feel depression that feels I haven't fulfilled anything? I have reasons that pop up but maybe they aren't ones that really matter? I feel I haven't fulfilled much because: 1. People seem to have significant others. They're not always happy but I see that as "they're doing pretty good in life". 2. I haven't gotten anywhere yet. A goal of mine is to go to Ireland to see if I would want to live there. I've heard it's a fantastic place. People are nice and caring. I don't know about Dublin. Sure there can be those people but from what I've heard, it's more easy going. I'd like to see for myself and that is going slower than I thought. 3. I'm going to school and I'm slower than most of the people. It's feeling like this month has been going very slow. It's dragging it's feet. My friends that talk to me more aren't very encouraging. Maybe it's my state of mind as of now. I hate this state of mind. I need to figure out how to get out of it. Howis this possible? What must I think of or do to get myself out of this? I have to keep my mind off it really. It's hard. The weekend makes it hard when I don't have school to go to. When I go to school, I have something to do. Something to keep my mind off things. When the weekend is here I don't hve things to do. I'm not good at thinking up things I can do. I mean I'd love to do things such as Hookah but I can't. I'm not allowed to in the home I'm in right now. I don't have a job so I can't do much anyway. I have money mostly for gas and food. Oh well. What is there for me to do? I feel this boredom and this not wanting to do anything. I feel like sitting around all the time. I need to do more. I know this and I tell myself but I don't do anything. I'm a hypocrite. I'm an annoying little human being. This is what I think of myself. I'm also an introverted extrovert. I look like an extrovert but I don't have energy. I fake it because others like it. Does it make me an introvert? I don't know, I'm having problems. Oh well. I need to get over myself. I'll get through it. I love you guys. Whoever reads this, I love you. You're special to me and I appreciate anyone that reads this. Even though you don't respond, it lifts my spirits to see people have read this blog. It's one more thing keeping me happy. Thank you guys. Goodnight.

Truth... Is This You?

Adults... They seem to be very irresponsible. Why is this? Well, it seems when they were younger, they weren't asked for as much responsability as people were earlier or even in these modern times. So many people are very irresponsible. I know so many irresponsible adults coupled with the irresponsible teens down. They're all the same. And then they all have kids (The teens and adults) and they're not sure what to do. Some people have experienced people around them. Some people disown the teens when they are pregnant and so they must find another way, adults are just annoying. Friends disown friends for the same reason. It's the stupidest thing. Adults are taking this You Only Live Once thing as well as the teenagers. The thing is you actually live every day, you only die once. No matter what, you shouldn't live every day doing stupid things because you might die tomorrow. You should be considerate. You should be kind even when it's extremely hard. You should try to be a better person. Don't ask yourself what you could possibly change. Ask friends, family or anyone you may trust. They can possibly help you become a better person. Do you want to be a better person? Someone told me everyone wants to be a better person. Is that true? As far as I've seen it really isn't. Its much easier be selfish, isn't it? You don't care? Do you give to those charities because you care or because you think people will think you're nice when your heart really isn't in it? Do things because you mean it. Otherwise there really isn't a reason to do anything when you don't mean it.