Turn Yourself Around?

Some days you feel done, that's me some days too. And sometimes that starts at the beginning of the day and you still have a load of things to do. You still have a day ahead of you. That was me today. I hated my life for a lot of the day because of sibling troubles, disagreements with parents, my current living situation and just caffeine (caffeine give me the 'case of the bipolars' as one of my friends calls it). I still had to get up. I still had to work. I couldn't be unprofessional even though I felt as though tears may pour down my cheeks like a waterfall. I had to breathe, think about the day and not where I'd be going at the end of it. That helped a little. I told a few people of what I was/am going through. That helped a little more. As the day is still going, I have been feeling better. I have been breathing. I have been calmer. And so, boys and girls, going through the day may seem terrible and impossible at the beginning. But if you make yourself get up, smell those roses and smile when smiling seems unnecessary, you may get through the day. Just try to breathe and not think of your troubles that are most definitely bubbling to the top of boiling oil, trying to be noticed by you. Only when you don't feel like crying each time you bring it to your mind may you give yourself permission to dwell on it. I'm still working on it. Why don't you work on it with me? Have a wonderful day. Thank you!

I Don't Understand Sometimes

You know, some people that say they are Christians seem to think they must shove their beliefs on those around them. Now, I am a Christian, but I believe my place is to maybe tell one about my faith but I am not exactly wonderful with words outside of typing them either on the computer or on my phone. And so I believe my place in this world is only to show people how I work on my Christ-likeness. I know I'm not perfect and I don't ever expect anyone else to be perfect, I only wish some people would calm down and show God's love instead of screaming at people that He hates them. I don't understand how someone can say 'I love the Lord', turn around and say 'God hates you' to anyone that doesn't agree with them exactly. In the Bible it says (paraphrasing) that we should be kind and love everyone because everyone is an icon of Christ. You shouldn't only be kind to those you particularly care for. I struggle with it because, again I am not perfect in any way, shape or form, but it's upsetting to see those people screaming while those around collect their daily thought to provide a stereotype to the world. I also find it interesting that the people around 'hate the judgmental Christians'. How are you any better? It's almost funny to me when people talk terribly about these 'judgmental people' and they don't seem to realise they are judging too. I do judge in different ways, I try to work on it though it is difficult when people make it so easy sometimes. I do understand how easy people make it but that never makes it right for anyone to judge one another. I may not agree with everything you do but that never means we can't be friends. You may not agree with everything I do but that never means we can't still be friends. I am not willing to give up a friendship that easily, will you?

The Value of a Life?

People talk about the living as if they are nothing. Only some people understand what life means. Only some people understand that all life is valuable. I hate seeing these people not value life. People don't understand that life means more than anyone could truly understand. They take life for granted and they don't care about anyone else's. I hate how selfish people are. It's just unbelievable sometimes. I can't even begin to understand. How people can be so extremely selfish is honestly, beyond me. Some days I look around and see selfishness spewing from everyone's minds and mouths. . other people are lonely and struggling too, okay? The least you can do is show respect and show the kindness that you expect from other people, to people you may not exactly appreciate. Show kindness to people you're not expected to. Believe me, they're worth it. I don't care what your life is like, how you can't take care of your fellow man because you're 'too busy'. Just be grateful you're alive. Be grateful you have a life, a home, a job. Show joy. I want more people to live and possibly see a better future. Can we give that possibility to others? To others that don't even know what the future is or could be for them? Give people a future and a people to look forward to. Don't ignore someone you deem less worthy. Don't look down on someone you've decided isn't close to your level. You are in no way better than anyone else. You're human and so is everyone else on this damn planet. Sometimes I'd like to go somewhere without people but that's mostly impossible and it won't help. People are still out there. People that are in need. I can't fix the world, I can only fix myself. But by fixing myself I can help the world around me. By working on not being selfish, by being who I'm meant to be and being a friend to those that don't think they have any because they don't think they freaking deserve them. Understand that. And if you bother, pick on, make fun of, hurt or TOUCH my friends or family, you better be watching your back.

Hello!s

Hello friends. My name is actually Schey. I wrote this story and randomly decided to put it on here because I wanted to see whether it would actually be read. Most of it I typed up on as a new post and never looked at it again to edit. I basically wanted to pour whatever filth or treasure might have been coming from my mind. It was very hard for me, some days, to actually start AND finish a post all in the same day because writers would block me everywhere I went(I had such severe writers block some days...). I do apologise for the days that I didn't happen to write a post, I really wanted to post every day. I just sometimes got very busy and then extremely tired when I was finally in a position to write a blog book post. Thank you all that did decide to read this mix of emotions, facts of my life and sometimes very terrible writing. Thank you all who have decided to endure to the end. I really do appreciate it! I really would love to hear what everyone thinks. I'd love to hear how terribly confusing some parts are to people. I'll read over it at some point and I'd like to make it into and actual book and that leads to another thought/question. What would I name this book? I have thought maybe: Eliana or Book on a Blog. I'm sure You brilliant mind out there might have a few wonderful ideas that I would love to hear/read in the comments section. Now, the real reason I took about a month off was for the Advent Fast because I am, in fact, an Orthodox Christian. I gave it up for the fast because I am on the internet waaaaaay too often so I took a break. Also, when I wrote the post when I got back I was listening to Say Something by a Great Big World the whole time. I know that's ridiculous and most people would hate even the idea of that. Some might find it 'sick' but it was my most favourite song right then. Otherwise my playlist was usually Josh Groban (that I remember). I thank you again for reading this and I will be starting my rants on here again soon enough. The next one might just be on bullying. Thank you and please follow me, if you really are interested in doing so. I hope to hear from you soon. See you all on the other side :)