Patience, A Beautiful Thing

Patience. One beautiful yet very hard, sharp and hurtful word. One thigh which I lack yet I strive for to be that person that I'd rather be to help with everything and everyone. What do I do to attain such a wonderful and very much wanted thing? May it be through prayer. May it be through this suffering. May it continue to rule a life and wiggle through to be perfected into me. May it live happyliy and continue to carry such loving grace to all no matter what, whether people thinka person is deserving. Its not your choice. You don't rule everyone. You keep your body. Your thoughts, your actions to you and avoid throwing you into someone else.

Accents?

I don't understand why anyone would make fun of anyone with an accent. Maybe it's weird to one such person as a child but it should sound lovely also. It makes no sense. Like british accents. They are so beautiful and graceful. Hispanic accents, so lovely. WHy would you make fun of such a glorious thing as an accent? Why would a child criticise? Why would that make sense when the world is made up of these wonderfully beautiful people?

Rather than think of the outward appearance, men and women should look at more than the outward and see the inward that is so very special. People shouldn't developed feelings because of the way someone looks. If that's one reason, which it will be, it should be one of the last reasons rather than the first or second. Something that a woman or man believes strongly or something you think is the best about them is the first. If it's the looks then maybe you just shouldn't be trying to find someone until you find some depth in yourself and be a deep sea diver instead of a shallow person. I mean, when has 'being shallow' ever been a good thing? Its loving someone because they wear make up? It's loving someone because they brush their hair? What crap is this? That is no love. That is just utter stupidity and crap. If you want to believe it, I'm not judging you, no way! Its just not a safe way to live with someone. Deciding if the world is ready for your real person. No, you decide when you are ready for anything. Be careful dear friends. There are so many shallow waters but if you walk a bit longer, you'll find that ocean.

Experience?

We all grow up in something. Sometimes its knowledge, it could be in childhood. Your knowledge could be any number of things in the world. How to get money, how to make toys or food, or love. You may have knowledge but real knowledge comes with experience. Like real love or worldly love, you don't know what it is until you really experience it. Learning how to get money is one skill many people seem to have just like talking, most people are good at it. Some people cry about the fact that they aren't able to speak to people in a way correct to other people. They don't understand how this is really possible and rather impossible for them. But that's how we fit in the world by being those different people better at different things because we experience things in different ways. Its better and in some ways harder to deal with but it seems we always pull through. No you don't need to be that one that's good at everything. Let your friend or relative do that. You be the best you because that helps push you to being better anything.

Stereotyping

Stereotyping is is terrible. You look at someone and decide they're one thing when they may be another. Maybe that guy on the motorcycle is really a writer just making it through. Maybe that girl walking around being girly is really someone that's just more boyish on the inside, maybe she enjoys hanging around guys and hanging out with them. Maybe that man sitting on the bench reading a newspaper is someone who actually enjoys things like outside but isn't used to being outside so he's enjoying it the way he knows. Maybe that woman crying needs someone and has a whole story that needs to be told but no one wants to listen. You should listen. All those stories? You could be afraid but kind to those in need. You're nice to your friends, right? I mean maybe only most of them. Or do you not have friends that care about you as a person? Well that's unfortunate because you may be the greatest person anyone could know. You have those thoughts of yours that some may not agree with. And? That's them and not you! If they decide to think one thing about you because one thing you decide to say to them, then they can do that. You're allowed to be frustrated but don't let it ruin your life. You have other people that actually want to understand you, like I'd love to try and understand you. Just have maybe coffee, tea and maybe a book or someone to talk to and go on with your life as the other person may go on with theirs.

You?

Excited for something, anything, to happen. Maybe for that special someone to be there suddenly for you especially when you may be missing someone else. Maybe its someone that gives you firsts. May it be a certain TV show? Its not always someone that helps of seems. Sometimes is could be something that helps you down that road. But maybe those eyes keep your heart up, maybe they have muscles that can help keep you walking. Maybe you are just able to really be on your own like so many fakers sing about. Maybe you're just making it and thanking God that you're alive and well enough to do anything with that power He may give you. Maybe you are happy. Maybe sad. Maybe just trying to be sad or trying to be happy. Whatever you are doing you are working on something in your head. No matter what you are not stupid. You always have your own ideas that you need to keep up unless maybe you find that one thing that you know you may count on and you live forever.

Past Crush... Future... What?

You may find something in your life that may seem too good to be true. Maybe its a crush from long ago that has just figured that he now has feelings for you. "Could it be true?" You may ask. But also you should ask "Do I really still have feelings for this person?" Well... do you? Does he still give you that gracious feeling? But wait, why has he Come out now? Why did he decide to tell you not only he has feelings for you, he always has? Is this real though? Could this be truth or is it just what they think you want to hear? Do you want to hear it now? Now why is it so confusing?! It was just a crush when those things mattered most to me! I mean, will this be going on to more deeper things? Or is this only for these few minutes they seem to remember you?

It Could Be... It Couldn't Be

One life may corrupt another without realizing it. But also one life may regenerate another. You may encourage one another through anything you do. You may also discourage anything that comes to you through a touch of a finger or a single word. YOu never know how you can affect someone until something happens... Or maybe something doesn't happen. They could be overjoyed by why you do something. People are all so different though, it could be confusingly clear if you look straight at it. It could also be so very unclear that it may be staring you in the face that you don't see what you could be seeing if you really wanted to look. But it's easier not to look sometimes. It's only sometimes easier to look to figure it out. What if you can? Will you solve a long forgotten problem? Open your mind and see what may be if you do push that but, cut open that mystery, listen to your theories. Anything may happen around you, but you never know what WILL happen until you actually do something about it.

Keeping Moments

These are moments we must seize as they come from the ground. The moments that happen too fast but so slow you can't catch it cuz you're the one in slow motion. Hold that moment in your mind, you may need it later. That moment when you get your first kiss. May it be exhilarating and so much of up in the clouds for as long as you may keep it there. If you can't stand it for very long then, you may wish you had later. Keep those moments close for any hard times because they will come your way soon if they haven't already. Do not dwell in those mistakes you make or maybe others make. Make moments count to be remembered especially when you're going down really hard on yourself. You are a person that matters very much in this world. You may not know what it is yet but when the time comes, you'll always know. For me? No I haven't had the right time for whatever I am supposed to be yet. I am just hoping and praying that the day will come that I know and may tell all that they may be happy for me. Otherwise I may perish without purpose.

What Shall I Be?

What would I be famous for, if I were to be famous at all? Shall it be what I believe in? Would it be that people think I sing well? Could it be for my personality? Would it be my supposed beauty? Maybe my love for everyone? Maybe my ableness to care for children? Maybe my eating habits or the fact that I am impressed by big burps? Maybe the fact that I give random information that none but me knows that really doesn't matter if anyone else knows? Could it be my love for trees such as those glorious redwoods? Maybe my insight into what people may or may not be thinking of? Who knows but the people? Will I ever know before I die? Will I be famous. This is highly improbable but I can only hope that I can do something in the world to somewhat improve it with or without my name being known. Maybe I'll have cancer and leave without a trace. Maybe people will care. I won't know until it happens. But whatever happens, I hope people are able to find happiness, true happiness, that lasts longer than a few days.

Why Me?

The reason I seem to "give advice" or whatever you may want to call it, is because they are mostly things that I myself actually need to work on. It is very easy for me to give advice that some may agree with without being capable to actually apply it to myself. Most of what I tell you, most of what I scream out is what I am trying to work on. I am very much not a perfect person that's figured things out. I am only ordinary and boring but in some ways, I know how to give people ideas that sometimes help. I can't say whether or not what I say does really help people, I can only look to see if people read what I say. If I see comments, yes I jump for joy. I want to see if people do agree with me. I want to see what I could maybe change in myself to possibly be a better person that's able to be joyful around everything. I only need help from whatever audience I may be entertaining with my little stories of what I think are right and wrong.