Showering...

I shower for more than just feeling clean. I shower to think. To dwell on the good days and to think about bad days though I try not to dwell on those. When I have a bad day I discuss it with myself in the shower and say all the bad things that happened along with all the bad things that could have happened. I think about people I wish I could see more often as well as the people I don't care for or maybe wish I could be closer but I know that'll never happen. See, a shower is for more than just cleaning your hair or anything else. Its for possibly cleaning your mind and what's on your heart. Maybe clearing a debate you had with a friend in your head or trying to understand people when you know it's pretty impossible sometimes. Oh well. It's something to learn as time goes on.

Waiting... Tough Stuff

I've had this feeling that I'm supposed to move to Ireland. I'm not going to just chance it because its a feeling so I'm planning on going there in a few years to check it out first for a few weeks. But I've had this feeling for a while and I've heard so many good things about it. Of course there will be the bad things, that comes with each territory. The thing is, I am incredibly impatient. I want to go NOW. I feel like I'm a child with these feelings though I also feel I can't stop them. Maybe its meant to be that I move there. The only thing is I can't count on my time in going there. It will be God's time. It's hard to remember that and keep that thought in my mind but it truly is. Even if you're an Athiest, you know it takes time to get somewhere. Its just hard to know the correct moment to act. You don't know all the time. Everything sometimes lays flat out for you but that's never a guarantee that it will happen. You have to work to get anywhere no matter what it is. You have to go through hardships to be stronger so you can stay where you'd like to be. Its hard to stay thinking that way though. It'd be nicer if it could happen now! But that way we don't gain any experience to be better in the now we'd like to be in. The now shall wait for later. It does have the feeling of getting closer though. Sometimes you feel you can almost touch it when you know you have more work to get there. Wait for the future. "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift. That's why its called the present." - Oogway from Kung Fu Panda

Nothing Is The Same

I hate when women decide every man is the same. Men aren't all the same. A lot if men seem to be the same but nit each individual man us the same. I know all sorts of men. Some are very responsible and trustworthy while others are very childish. They might all think the same but they don't all act the same way. All men become terrified at certain things but men respond differently. Some respond responsibly like when they find out their girlfriend is pregnant. Some run away while others stay to take care of and support their girlfriend. Some men are very helpful and gentlemanly. Nowadays a lot if men and boys are not gentlemanly. That's because they have been taught differently. People have been spoiled and given everything. When you're a spoiled brat you don't think nor do you want to act kind to anyone. That I'd where men and women are today. People are also very defensive about the wrong things. People argue the rights and wrongs. These days all of that is different. All the wrongs and rights are very different today. There are barely any wrongs and more rights. The rights seem to be wrong though the wrongs are usually wrong. That's what is wrong with the world. With men and women. With children of today. Its not getting better you guys. Nothing will get better, everything is slowly getting worse and it will get worse. There's almost nothing we can do. But we can always try.