Tell the World Oh Well

It's interesting how many happy things can happen around you but you don't feel the happiness that should go along with it. Sometimes it's because you're a selfish person that always wants more. Other times it's because you only want to see or hear from one person. Sometimes people aren't fortunate enough to see that one person that could make your week, month, or life. Sometimes that is one of the hardest things to do, especially when you must put a smile on your face for everyone when you feel more like crying in the corner, hoping that one person will talk to you. You wonder what their life is like when they don't talk to you. It may be days or even hours though it feels like years. It's discouraging but your chin must rise above your sorrows and keep going. It may feel painful. It may be hard. You may never want to see the light of day ever again but you must rise above the life that you may want and continue with the life you have now. You can't show the fear that may be choking you to stay living on this earth with people you are told to be with, you must learn to fly among the clouds to start your life as you'd actually like it. Bend some rules, lay down your law, but consider peoples feelings though you should never bend because someones feelings might get hurt. Only consider their feelings slightly. You should be able to have your free will no matter what. So your feelings for whoever or about whatever should be yours to keep. It's okay to feel the way you feel, you just need to feel confident and comfortable enough with yourself that you can let the world know and just be okay with their decision to either accept or decline. Just shrug your shoulders, smile and tell them "Oh well".

Am I Dreaming?

Some days I close my eyes hoping to see the future, a future that I'd like to be in. Some days I see myself in the forest. I feel the wind, I smell the great redwoods. I suddenly realise someone holding me. This is my dream, right? I should know if someone is holding me. Alas, I look up and it's him. I breathe in his familiar smell, so very welcoming. I turn to face him, I didn't know his face would be so close and... so perfect. I didn't know his space could be mine without any warning. The way his eyes adore me, it makes it hard to breathe sometimes. Even in this dream, I can feel all the emotions running through me as if he were really here. He doesn't give me a choice, he brings me in. Our lips meet, oh how my heart beats. My surprise lasts for seconds as thrill and happiness swirl around as butterflies to pterodactyls, growing in my stomach. I almost want to let go and leave from this situation, is this too much? I don't know what to do but I almost feel like puddy, I'm unable to do anything. I finally am aware of my surroundings, aware of my limp limbs. I can do one of two things, I can push away or pull in closer. I have a side thought of pushing away as I pull closer to this wonderful being. I can't believe it. I have found and captured the one and only specimen of human worth capturing. It is mine, and I've decided not to share. I'm sorry world, but I can't bring myself to share such treasure. I think all of this through the kiss. We let go at the same time, wanting more. I breathe in a few times. He chuckles and brings me in once more as I step on his toes to possibly be level with his face. As my head rushes to his... I wake. I breathe as if out of breath and almost cry for it was indeed, only a dream. Now to go on with this unfortunate day without my wish being true. Maybe some day...