Me in 3D

What is this world but a tiny mind trying to figure out why, where and when with every little i thing it comes across? This annoying mess of what the hell is going around and killing the cells in our heads that help us think and consume those ideas of teachers and people around us. What if we just sat in a corner and quieted our thoughts. Oh is this difficult? Are your thoughts rampaging around no matter what you do? Is this the same with me? Extremely and definitely. Its part of why I have this blog to pour out my ideas and how I see the world around me. And what if I stopped this writing? Would people care? I think not because no one seems to think of my ideas as either good or they're afraid that I may be a violent person. I am quite the opposite I've been told and I look and act extremely sweet but I have quite a temper that apparently none can see. I think alot although its 'much ado about nothing' and no one gets me quite. People may try. They may say they do but that's because they see what's on the outside and hear what I say. Only the things out loud. I'm not always permitted to speak of what's really going on in my life or what I think of people problems. Not everyone believes as I do and I respect that they have their own thoughts but that never means my thoughts and feeling aren't as important as I may think. Now everyone's thoughts are very important for all to know whether they are relevant to a situation or about the nonsense of love that people think they know of. Many people think of love as lust and only lust its quite normal a bit more than that. And everyone also hate things so unintelligently. All say they hate mostly because it "isn't free choice" or whatever. You are the one putting that cage around yourself. Its you choice whether or not you do anything or nothing. Its your choice to be nice or mean to everyone. My choice is trying hard to appreciate all I see and love the people around me. I've been called the nicest person in the world and an angel. I am nowhere near being such. Just because you see outward doesn't mean I'm not thinking certain things. I've also been called very mean by a few people and those people make me want to kick em. But it also makes me want to be better.