Who Could I Love?

When I look at someone for a possible relationship, I also think about whether or not I could grow old with them. Not so much for the romantic thought but for really wanting to have that one that I know I could tell everything. My best friend that I love more than a friend. One that I can trust in tough situations. One able to help me no matter what, someone I know I will be of some help any time he needs it. That's why relationships should never be just a big feeling game that people play with each other. I want to be able to say I love you in the tough times. I have a hard time telling guys that I love them. I've been getting better but I don't want them thinking I love them in more than a friend way when that's all I can really offer at this stage of my life. But I need someone that is willing to wait. Someone that can not only grow physically "With me" but somewhat mentally, maybe spiritually. Someone who can know all about me but doesn't immediately go to my side as being right. I don't want to argue but I need someone that can help me think about things. I need someone that I'm able to learn from. I need someone that won't put me down but build me up with information that I don't understand. Maybe information I believe I know but I got a few things incorrect. I'd like someone I could discuss with. I'd like someone to watch the sunrise drink tea with. Maybe watch the sunset. Someone that likes writing letters. Someone that'd like to try to understand me. Could I find someone like that? Maybe. You don't know until it happens. Remember that. Hope for what isn't yet so it may be in the future. Be glad of your right now. You're gonna need it later.