These Questions Of Stress

This feeling of stress I have only just obtained has taken my feelings to a different level and has hidden what I really am feeling inside. What may I be feeling? Pressure? Happy? Sad? Mad? Guilt? Or any other possibility that, I don't know why I would have this feeling. It scares me and it shocks me into tears or almost tears each night which is becoming quite annoying. It's become some sort of evil routine that cannot be stopped. I might also be scared at the thought of growing up. It seems like I'm supposed to just know what to do once I'm a certain age and people get confused when I don't jump to such a big step. I am always going to be me and me changing, if I really must, will be very slow moving. I'll try an be mature but this society kinda says not to, to just "Live Life' cause "Life is short" and all that. Yes Life may be short, but what's right here and now should be at least mostly priority. It shouldn't be all party, games and sex. There are better things to live to and keep growing with. Should we really be thinking about getting "Knocked up?" Is this really the importance of life? Should this be the only thing to look forward to? What do your friends do? The rebuke and judge you for being pregnant and they MIGHT come back when the baby is born and say "Oh it's so cute!" but does that make them your real friends? Does that make YOU happy?