I Have Feelings Too

Sometimes laughter is empty. Sometimes you feel your laughter bubbling up and out but you don't mean it because inside you feel empty, like there's a void to fill. A Nothing to be afraid. These are my feelings, if you weren't sure. I am feeling pretty empty. It happens to be because my thoughts of what people think of me and whether people like me or not have been wrong. I don't mean like as in a possible significant other. I mean like as in a more friend or boss relationship. I feel torn down by the fact that I don't know how to read people. I'm torn down by the fact that I'm awkward and apparently people don't know what to do about that. It's hard to breathe because the pain in my heart, my depression, is felt each time I sip the water in the air. I don't know what I should be doing and so I'll be here, sipping tea and trying to interact as my mid races with wonders and questions.